The Lord is giving me a new outlook. He's showing me that after Jesus performed all the miracles, signs and wonders he then withdrew to the desert, where he had intimacy with his Father and where he was tempted to doubt who he was. He was tempted to doubt if he was truly who God said he was. I'm realizing for the call God has on my life, I have to be in this place for now, for training. I have to learn intimacy with the Father. I have to learn to hear and see what He is doing, to not doubt who he is. God can't just send me to another country because you have to be trained and eqiupped. You better understand prayer, intercession and the faithfulness of God more than you know your own name. It is good though..because it also said after the enemy came to Jesus and attempted to attack him HAHA the angels came and ministered to Jesus! I laugh because "God of the Angel Armies" is like my theme song right now, ha..and I know that these Montreat/black mountain/asheville hills are full of a mighty angel army!!! God is teaching me he does answer us when we call. He will reveal what we're supposed to do and eventually why as we seek Him. Seeing God as the same loving, faithful God is the key. Everything comes out of trust. To understand us and our situations we have to Know and Trust who HE is. If we doubt that..we can't see anything else in perspective. God will never allow anything that won't be worked for our good for those who love Him and are called according to His purposes. We have to believe, we have to trust, we have to seek, we have to Fight even when it's hard. We have to kick the enemy in the face and call him a liar. We have to claim our Land. We are the Lord's, this Land is the Lord's. This person is the Lord's!! Matthew 16:19 says: "I will give you the keys of the kingdom of heaven; whatever you bind on earth will be bound in heaven, and whatever you loose on earth will be loosed in heaven." There's nothing he doesn't have in control..no matter how things "look." I'm learning..oh am I learning but I just want to know and love him more and when you say whatever you want God, whatever you say, He will take you up on it!! haha, but it's such a rewarding thing..such a sweet thing to Trust Him and declare that no matter what things look like "I WILL see the goodness of the Lord in the land of the living (Psalms)." I love you guys!! I can feel the prayers, keep it up..I'm not gonna lie..i'm pretty much alone BUT i'm not at the same time. God is bigger than any human help mate. I need the intercession and prayers..I need open doors and I need to hear Him. It's been raining since I got here..I know it's more than weather. God told me it would..and it has..and it will..in the Spirit. I can't wait for everyone to come and visit :). My room is SO cute :). I sleep so well, once I fall asleep haha! One of the most challenging things I see coming is God calling me to be a speaker of Truth. We went over some of the Student Handbook today and talked about the movie Les' Mis. Great movie, I absolutely love it but they were saying how we need to give Grace and not always just inforce the rules..which is true to an extent. I see it like Hebrews talks about a lot of the time discipline is love..its just not easy. They want to pat people on the back and build community...I'm not here to "build community" for this college, I'm hear to build the Kingdom of God!!!! I want to snatch people out of the fire who are involved in addictions and homosexual lifestyle. Not just pat them on the back and say we love you anyways, it's your choice. God has a plan for their lives, a call!!! and by golly if i'll sit back and watch the enemy try to destroy their souls! I will love them and be their friend but I will preach the Good News and do EXACTLY what Jesus told me to do in the Gospels "Repent, the Kingdom of Heaven is at Hand." I am a prophetic voice in the place for the Most High God, not a community builder. I don't care about money or if everyone never gets offended. I care about their spirits! I care about whether they hear the Good News..that's what I care about and if I'm the only one who cares to say something that might and probably will offend, then Lord Give me Boldness because they need to hear it!! I love them more than my repuation. I don't want to be disliked who does? But if I have to be called names and misunderstood for the sake of their souls then so be it. That's the Holy Spirit because it would be MUCH more simple to just do what everyone is doing and secretly pray for them and just never call them out on anything or never quote the Bible because that might offend them! I've done it before and I won no one to Jesus, saw no healings or deliverences, or baptisms in the Holy Spirit. I'm ready to try it God's way! My spirit is so willing but my flesh is weak, so pray pray pray pray! Please. Even if you just say God help Jordan! He knows..prayer is so powerful. Intercession is the Key! I love you all and more to come later. I hope to FILL this blog with the goodness of God...with the testimonies of the Holy Spirit and I WILL!
Jordan
"..Nothing can come between your mighty love for me
I lift my eyes to the hills
where does my help come from?
My help comes from the one who made the earth and heavens.
I believe that your more real than what eyes can see
I believe these hills are FULL of a mighty angel army.."
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