A Week of Thanksgiving and Thoughts!

The Winter Holidays are my favorite. I get all into it and excited, The Child in me comes to life! This Thanksgiving I was especially thankful. The older I get, the more people I meet, the longer I am away from home, the more I realize how incredibly blessed I am. I am alive, I am loved, I am blessed. There are so many people in my life even people's paths that I have crossed that I am so thankful for. At the same time as we approach a new year so many thoughts are running through my mind. I think of how much 2009 was a year of destiny for my life, a year ordained by the Lord. Why is it they we always revert back to our past to try to determine our future? It's silly really. I've lived 21 years yet I think I've experienced it all, haha, I know God laughs at that thought. My life reminds me of Melanie in Sweet Home Alabama, one of my all time favorites. She has her life planned out and it all looks SO successful to the world. Yet, when she goes back to her past to tie up loose ends, she realizes that a part of herself is there, it's not the big time designer, it's the part of herself she left at home. Somehow I can relate, of course this has nothing to do with men, haha but I feel like when I come home I KNOW who I am, I know what I'm called to do, I know what God has for me and when I go back to school I get so caught up in success in what this world sees as successful and I start planning out everything for my life. Yet, If I were to really be honest I'm not following my heart. Rick Warren says God's will is the thing you would do even if you didn't get paid. I know what that is and it surely doesn't pay, it's a life of faith. Yet, I know without a doubt God calls people to minister within professions, is that me? I don't know. I just know I can't make it 4 more years in school unless the Lord's hand is on it. I have doubts about 2009. I feel like once you have 1 great year then a bad one must be coming...I know that sounds so faithless. It's just every time I put my guard down..it's a mistake. My prayer is that God would go far above my doubt and make 2010 an even greater year of destiny for my entire family!

We humans keep brainstorming options and plans,
but God's purpose prevails.-Proverbs 19:21