Anyone who has been away from home for a length of time knows what I am talking about. It is not the feeling of "missing out" on something. It's not the feeling that your town is so great and wonderful that you miss what it offers. It's not the feeling of wanting something that your current town doesn't have. It's that feeling of rest. It's that feeling of being with those you love and not having to explain a thing, because they know you so well they can read your face. It's that feeling of petting your dog and knowing she's been with you since childhood. It's the ache. It's that sinking feeling that you can't just pick up and drive into your driveway that you've turned into 1000 times before. The feeling that your loved one's voices can only be heard through a mobile device and their faces only seen on a computer screen.
Normally, I am relatively content at school but all day today, I've been homesick. I don't know if it's the changing of leaves or the loneliness of business (what a paradox). However, I am feeling it tonight. I feel the need to run up to my dog and pet her. To hear my dad singing some random song and my mother yelling "TONY!" like she were calling him from mars, when he is in the next room. The need to sit beside my best friend to share a secret, a laugh, a struggle and to talk to her about life. To have family hugs from those who know and love me most. As silly as it is I am achingly homesick tonight.
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